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10:38 am
[Link] | fall is almost over, winter is on its way and my mind is still basking in a slowly forgotten summer breeze. guna try to keep it there for as long as i possibbly can.
i do need a jacket or coat though and a pair of new boots too, maybe even some new jeans.
actually come to think of it, i could use a whole new wardrobe lol
maybe even a whole new outlook in life but for now i'll let the sun guide me, for as little time as i have it around for. cuz soon it will be in hiding and i will have to turn to the moon.
and maybe even howl abit.
:P
Current Location: sipping on some cozy chamomile tea and a cinnamon roll
Current Mood: im ok
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10:40 am
[Link] |
Top 3 things I HAVE TO DO:
#1 - join a gym already (or do something toward exercising my body, consistently)
#2 - get new docs/clothes
#3 - eat better
..... on another note, the band is getting ready to record another EP.
this weekend we're recording drums and hopefully some bass :D
lets hope i have one of my top 3 things in progress by the time i write again.
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02:14 pm
[Link] | my babehcakes made me a sweeet mix CD. this is on my favorites on it:
:D
Current Mood:  optimistic
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11:07 am
[Link] | its been 5 weeks since my last entry.... this sounds more like a confessional rather than an entry hehheh
cant remember the last tme ive been to church. i use to go. i use to go alot.
if i went now it would probably be for the quietness of it, the stillness of it....
we have show tomorrow night, looking forward to it. there's guna be free beer there :P
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11:46 am
[Link] | convince yourself that you'll get better. tell yourself, everything will be alright. play this on repeat so you dont forget the melody, so you dont forget 'the changes'....
Current Mood: mona tone
Current Music: THE STROKES - I'll try anything once
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04:17 pm
[Link] | this just popped into my head:
you know, when i walk along side you, i walk alittle taller, i walk alittle stronger.
and when i put my arms around you, my heart beats alittle louder, it pounds alittle harder.
thats all i wrote down....
Current Mood: eh so so .
Current Music: AMOR - Eydie Gorme
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04:07 pm
[Link] | sometimes i feel like everything i do is wrong and i'll never get anything right and each day is just another block being added on to this wall of blocks but every once in while i knock down the wall of blocks and i, start all over again. :::: karate kick:::: hehheh :( :) :/ winter is almost over. :D
Current Music: RACHELS - Water from the same source
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06:01 pm
[Link] | ever tell you about that time i had a one dollar and 70 cents to get home from new york city.... well i needed 1.75 for the Path Train to get me across to hoboken new jersey and then walk 3 miles.... i dont mind walking, really i dont.
my only choice was to hop on the Path Train and if i got caught, i would face the consequences. when i say hop on the train, i mean i would get on the train without paying. without anyone seeing me, hopefully. anyway on my walk to the Path Train, which felt like i was walking a plank, there was a bum who was walking along side me singing some song so i would give him some change and i said sorry 'buddy i barely have money to get home, im about to jump the subway'. he said 'oh no dont do that, how much u need?', i was so surpirsed, i said 'a nickel.' and he said 'here take a quarter.' holding in the tears i said 'thanks'. he said 'get home safe', and walked away. ....see there's still good left in world people. never lose hope. even for an irresponsible person as myself, there's still hope. :/
Current Mood: looking back....
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01:45 pm
[Link] | went to see: streetlight manifesto and reel big fish.
i jumped around, danced in circles AND i crowd surfed.
i tried once or twice and fell on the floor but then one time i made it to the stage by the bouncers.
it was freakin awesome. cant wait to do it again.
:D
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01:32 am
[Link] | Therapy with Sisterzer0:
Doc: so hows life treating you Sisterzer0?
SisterZer0: its going alright, i guess. christmas is just around the corner again you know, makes people abit crazy....
Doc: you havent written in your journal lately, how come?
SisterZer0: uhm cant get the thoughts down fast enough i guess.
Doc: hows the band going?
SisterZer0: well, thanks for asking.
Doc: any complaints?
SisterZer0: you mean about the band or like in general.
Doc: both?
SisterZer0: uhmmm....not really. wish i had more money though.
Doc: to spend on the band or in general?
SisterZer0: both.
Doc: interesting. have you been keeping up with your bills?
SisterZer0: nope.
Doc: how come?
SisterZer0: not good at prioratizing i guess. i hope to one day though. be could at that. i usually put the band needs first and then me later.
Doc: and hows that going?
SisterZer0: im usually broke.
Doc: oh sorry to hear that.
SisterZer0: im not.
:D
Current Music: ra ra riot - can you tell
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10:04 pm
[Link] |
last entry?
the other night i wrote a little something, thought i would share:
had a few drinks. didnt cross any lines. my thoughts hurt though.
they were sharpe edged when usually theyre well-rounded....
debating to end this livejournal thing and starting something new, wierd i know.
ugh.... i dunno. wats the point anyway, you know.
Current Music: kings of leon - sex is on fire
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05:55 pm
[Link] | tonights plans:
a bottle of red wine + playing my guitar = new songs
hahaaaa!
its getting darker out earlier than usual. i kinda like it. im a night person....
speaking of dark. on a darker note, i gotta pay rent. pay my mom back some money i owe her. paid my cellphone bill. dont wanna pay my parking tickets. lol and i still gotta get an oil change on the van..... it seems like it never ends. its just one thing after another.
BUT, i am buying a halloween costume tomorrow, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Current Location: cell block #6
Current Mood: oddly optimistic hehheh
Current Music: SEX ON FIRE - kings of leon
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04:46 pm
[Link] | things i need:
more memory for my computer
a 9volt adapter for my tuner
a new amp
a new guitar
a hard slap on the face
a 6-track trackrecorder
a drum machine
start studio practices up again
have a little more remorse
stop breaking the law
pay attention more to my family
eat less carbs
aaaaannnnnd
oh oh buy a big fluffy puffy dark gray bed comforter so i can run and dive into my bed
thing i dont need:
a watch
Current Location: mental purgatory
Current Mood: looking forward to red wine...
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01:34 pm
[Link] | my irresponsibility has hit its all time high....
i did find a job though so thats good thing, dare i say a responsible thing.
lately ive been wondering back n forth, from my forehead to the back of my head.
i like it better in the back, wow that sounded dirty.... whatever.
moving right along i wanna say more but i dont think anyone has enough time to really sit down and listen.... i think alot, this may not be the wisest decision.
winter is on its way.
need a winter coat. and a hat. and gloves. maybe even some night vision goggles for my midnight walks through the snow.
UGH. gotta shake this gray cloud off.
....think maybe i should start a new journal somewhere else.
Current Location: far far far away
Current Mood: gray
Current Music: band practice tapes
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01:14 am
[Link] | uhmmmmm....
i think im......inlove?
:P
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04:34 am
[Link] | today is my birthday! alittle early i know, my b-day is september 4th but i cant sleep.
i was planning to spend my birthday alone. was guna wake up around noon go play some tennis,
come home have a nice late lunch, play my guitar cuz we have a show on saturday, then buy a six pack, play some guitar hero, order some chinese and call it a day. but by looks of it, im goin to be falling asleep at around 5am cuz i was partying with my wonderful brother, a pre-bday celebration. sooooo im guessin im waking up at like noon. probably with a hangover lol hang around the house til like 6pm, then
picking up one of my most favorite person in the whole wide world and going
to some band meeting in hackensack about us playing at some jersey art festivals, which should end around 9pm
and after that who knows what will happen. i personally wanna hang with my close friends and get tipsy lol
my birthday aint everyday so what the hell, right.
gotta find a job soon cuz my unemployment check are about to run out. been sending out resumes but
i really enjoy the free time i have in my hands, but i gotta find a job so i can save money and go on tour AGAIN.
it was awesome. one thing i really learned from the tour is that the US is very small, everything is a drive away.
next tour we plan on going up north through canada and coming back down through seattle, down to cali and head east.
cant freakin wait.
:)
Current Mood: super duper thankful
Current Music: the stills - still inlove song
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08:02 pm
[Link] |
woo hoo!
made it back home.
cant wait to go out and do it again.
wrote a little poem:
and so the saga may have just been put on hold for jessica's destiny as a loner.... if on ly she could change her loner ways.
"If only", was like a fork in an otherwise forbidden stricken road. And although she very much enjoyed long walks, this walk seemed more of a threat. An impending diaster awaiting her first few steps. "Left before right....", she whispered to herself as she marched on down the road. "Left before my right...."
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12:39 am
[Link] |
and so it begins....
the van:
we leave in 3 days....
:D
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05:07 pm
[Link] | is it just me or does sunkist soda look like carrot soda?
hah hahahha
i mean i know its orange soda but imagine if like it were carrot soda,
you think people would drink it....
whoa thats kinda big. too lazy to fix it though and make smaller but i think you get it, no.
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12:44 am
[Link] | lately ive been having ALOT on my mind, like ALOT. sorta like a volcano ready to erupt....
but ive had a talk with my band members who are pretty much my only real friends.
and i feel lighter than ever. more confidant, more stronger to what i have to
accomplish. i feel very blessed. very lucky to have to have such understanding bandmembers that i do.
makes me want to scream out to world....
coldplay's new song viva la vida, is my theme song for now.
i heard it like a hundred times. and each time i hear it makes me stronger, brighter....
:)
the world looks bigger, wider, more inviting. cant wait to leave with them.
cant wait to start this NEW CHAPTER in my life. its all about risks, all about chances,
and HOPE and TRUTH.....
i love them more than they'll ever know.
Current Mood: accomplished
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